In God we belive?

I put this question to every inquisitive head reading this post. Have you ever thought outside the ‘bun’? The bun, I call is one's physical existence. I am penning this in darkness of my mind and my apartment. Right now my thoughts are outside my physical existence. I see myself jabbering to glory. Where am I heading too? Let me hit this question at you? What do you think God is? It’s always been a mystery to me. So I decided to take a trip into my darkness. Why don’t we have more answers? I have carried this question in my backpack throughout my physical existence I will call myself a passionate doubter who doesn’t lose his faith. But through my other eye, I see a dejected, sad, unforgiving and spiritless world. This dark side keeps questioning that faith, a constant battle. I wish I had that 'blue pill' and just wake up as .............. I don’t know what?

People of all religions associate god with 'belief'. Why is belief married to god? We as Hindus believe in many gods. I will definitely go on to day that we have the most number of gods believed to have left footprints on this planet. We have the most probability on sustained proof through the billion years that we have known them. I was in India last year and I put forward this question to a person of religious superiority. His explanation included a fascinating conspiracy that all epics as we know of god are just like Harry potter. Ram was a character of fiction, to instill faith and curb the spread of radicals. I agree with him, but why orchestrate a lie and pass it on for generations and allow the lie to mutate into faith, belief and ultimately religion?

I remember, 10 years ago I was an astute believer and a sincere disciple. I used to feel what the Baptist ministers in the South Carolina felt. But these days belief is misinterpreted truth to me. Many people ask, why wasn’t god there that day? I am asking the same why isn’t god here today? But soon I realize that I may have been part of the biggest cover-ups of all time. Another thought zipped through my mind as pen this line down; probably god did not want to god. Ram did not want to be god, yes he was mortal but he probably did not want to be god. He did what man should do, protect and rescue his woman. But why do we consider that as a godly act?

JC, did the same, fought for the poor and oppressed, just like Mother Teresa and Vivekananda. All these people showed tremendous leadership abilities and commanded thousands of people. I compare people in the early years to a brand new out of the box PC. With just the operating systems, called spirit. It boots up once and shuts down once. Not like the one what Gates has. There is just enough data for the OS to operate, but there is tons of free space. With this analogy, lets spin the wheel to go the early years of JC. JC, as I have researched, was known to be rebel, one against the institution. Girls dig that those days and dig that today. He had the ability to convince people with his ideas for the good. People were prepared to accept new ideas and data. That made JC popular and there by the Son of God. If he were of this day, he would probably be the CEO of JC mart and would be recalling toys from his shelf today.

Now, let’s step back few thousand more years, as I recall Ram was the ideal man. He had the looks, the balls and the brains to talk the talk and walk the walk. He kicked Ravan's ass and got his girl back. In Geico terms "Even a Caveman could do that". Why did he get the godly promotion? Was it forced on him; probably it was by people who knew him. He was probably the first guy to do this. We know him for that, but why god? In short he was probably the best-known model.

But on the other hand, they’re certain happenings that I have experienced which are beyond my reasoning capabilities. As sincere doubter, my theory to miracles is that there exists one more dimension to our physical world that we have not realized yet. A world that doesn’t follow conventional laws. In short energy can be made to disappear and energy can be created from a point of singularity. Frequent interactions with this medium are the 'godly experience' as we know off.

So I put this question to you, what is god to you?